WEDDING CRASHERS

10^th Nov. was a lovely day for me, as come 11^th; I will b feeling on top of world (u know, everyone does, on his b’day)… we were planning where to parties, my bumps etc. etc… but there was nothing special about night before it, as all 5 of my flat mates were not there and we were to celebrate on 11^th night only… On the way back home from office, we stop for some shopping.. When v reached back to our car, it didn’t started.. After some 15mins of quarrel and 100 meter of pushing it started..

It was around 8’o clock.. And it was well above time our maid used to leave if any of us didn’t reach back home.. When we were turning for home we saw a marriage palace, all lightened up, and it remind Rajiv of his friend’s invitation to a marriage, some where in or around NOIDA.. Soon he called him and come to know that, that marriage was in PANIPAT.. When we reached home, we found She (our maid), was gone.. We planed to go for that palace we saw on the way.. Yes, v did but said one of our friend, that its Rajiv’s friends invitation (knowing that he wont go, if wasn’t invited, too many ethics) and it will be fun too.. ALL 4 were ready to rock...

Soon v landed to that MAHARAJA Place.. and without any fear v entered.. There was some unfriendly feeling coming while doing so.. And come the nightmare… there were too many people and most of them were dancing like mad.. Sooner v find out that “There was no marriage” and some PUJA is going on.. We decide to escape out as soon as.. We were disappointed, and we felt like a joke..

So regretting v derived toward main market, searching for restaurant.. But all wanna go to marriage, anywhere even if not in noida. So like a lost loin, looking for his food, we moved.. Suddenly v saw some crackers lightning.. It seemed to b of a marriage celebration.. v asked a PAN walla.. He told ‘there’s a club that side’.. “That’s where it might be”. Sound of crackers increased.. We were almost there..

We entered with Bharat. We had planned to keep an eye on each other and didn’t act worried as gathering was too less. And as u might remember we were invited by ‘ANKUR’, Rajiv’s friend, if someone asked… We eat different delicious dishes, from fruit chat to hot chart, from Pani-puri to Pau Bajji, there were many things and we were enjoying it… Soon I saw a guy and he seems familiar too, I thought he was my senior. We try keep away from him. Then come Amul saying he has seen a senior too, we thought if they meet we will say as decided earlier. And there is no need to worry.

Dinner was served. And we want to eat and leave. Then I walk into one more senior, this time a well know to me. ‘Hi Saurabh, how r u? What u doing in this marriage? Which side u r from?’ For me ‘world seem to be too small’ and at such moments u don’t remember any excuse… but some how I handle him, he told how came he was here and why I had seen other sr. too. Then I turned away and move toward my friend to find, I m being stop by my classmate, by that time I know why she was there, they all worked in FREESCALE and there group head’s sister was being married.

We talked, she asked same questions and I gave that same reason we agreed on earlier. I felt she come to know I was lying, what ever I have to give some excuse. When we were talking, I just wanna skip from there but cant.. She keeps on asking too much and I had reply. I felt like its not good to be known by too many persons.. We had our dinner by then and just wanna leave before some scene gets created.

Actually I can say that even though, we were not even last person invited, we know many present there and they know us too… and now I feel knowing too many people is also dangerous… what ever had happened that day it was fun and seriously I loved it …

Complicated Me...

This world is very busy, it doesn’t have time for others, but do we have time for ourselves?? Actually, when I thought of same, I felt there r many things on my mind, I can’t even concentrate on a single of it. It has turned into some kind of ‘fish market’, as my English teacher used to say.. Neither I can find, what I am doing, nor I know what I wanna do.. If I try find out what’s problem or where I m messed up, I find myself more tied up into this spider’s web, and there seems no way out…
From last few days this problem continued to bundle up things over me.. As those close to me know I wanna do every thing I come across.. Most of them craziest.. I wanna go left but also right at same time, wanna study n read novels, wanna watch movies but also play, wanna chat with friends, wanna learn dance, also how to play Guitar, all in mere 24hrs that I have.. I cant explain, what in fact I want, but all these things are up here.. in my mind.. I don’t know it’s empty or filled up with crap?? But it don’t allow me to settle down.. Always calling out ‘do this, do that’.. Can’t it rest??
I cant think of a single day, when I can say I had done all I wanted to do.. But thinking about it, I also feel, what will be fun, if I have done everything or rather, if I didn’t try everything, I might have missed out some excitement.. Some time I feel like measuring what value me most.. But I end up doing what’s everyone is doing.. I thought that I m following other’s, but that’s what make me go diverse, isn’t it??
I don’t wanna flow with river, but I know I wont survive against it, or its because I m afraid of it?? Had I given up before I had started?? Was there more I can do, before expecting in one go??? I want to think I didn’t just follow the motion, but I can’t even lie to myself. I know I had taken decisions, which I know wont harm me. But will they help me?? I told u earlier na, I m totally messed up..
Today I thought a lot, what I m?? What I m making out of my life?? Did I have taken my decisions right?? Had I thought as much as I require before deciding where to move on?? After a wasting a lot of time, I end up thinking, its all had been in the past.. Leave it.. There’s more to come, I need to catch up to improve my future.. But God wanna me to know something.. That day I meet two of my friends, and some how v end up discussing same (why v r here??) and in finally nutshell we thought ‘its for learning more’…
Finally, I considered what kind of person I m.. I end up evaluation “I might not be GOOD, but I m not BAD too”.. I will stand for my friends when ever they need me.. I m happy that, I have too many friends, most whom I can rely on…In past few weeks I have written too much but didn’t post a single one.. may b In coming day I will post few of them… but I wanna post this one as someone might help me come out of my mind trap…