One Day To Go....

From my childhood, I used to welcome my new year watching that 'Idiot Box', waiting for clock to click and those Host (Actors) in those same old celebration programs Jumping in excitement, with Glitters get spread allover the stage... n soon after Wishing Parents and cousins back to bed (what else can one do at home, without friends).. that didn’t even changed when I was in college.. as v have winter holidays and all of us were back home.. Except one occasion, that I remember, when I welcome yr 2007, in Kolkata, I enjoyed a lot but was in warm accompany of parents and relatives..
But this time around, it should be different... I m out of those protected hands, Out alone with some friends whom I had known in past few years.. this year also brought many new things, from being dependent to become 'Independent', From a student to a 'Professional', from Under graduate to a 'Graduate' and Most importantly I being "Employed" (Contributing to India's Employment Rate). This year had taught me a Lot...
So, As the year closes to end, My friend's and I want to do that at most happening note we ever had, and welcome 2009 with Big-Bang, also to made 31st night our first "Night Out" in Delhi.. but u know there r always hurdles and this time we all being foreign to Delhi's Parties.. Also biggest drawback that none of us is a Drunker (Chalo, hum main kuch to achi aadat hai) and also we guys r not that smart to carry few Girl-friends to accompany us.. Reducing our chances of Disc Night...
But v don’t wanna spend our night in Noida... n We know that when v friends r together, v can make a dull night happening… also this time v r determined to make this one happen “Our first Night out in Delhi”.. Thinking of my last night out (in Chandighar).. I feel, v might not b that luck (to find a Movie shooting at 2 A.M) but Delhi has a lot in store to explore… With finger crossed, I hope for best...

P.S Happy New year to all of u…

Meeting with BOSS...

Its good when u get what u want.. but its suspense when u something unwanted happens.. n all such suspense are not that bad (many time serious).. so was a small 5 min meeting with my boss... it all start with my one of well know habit.. most of my friends must be knowing ‘how punctual I m’.. Will be just late by half an hour on a normal day.. and as much as an hour nd half (I thought I had missed a lecture, n will go for second, but actually time table was of lab), but I will have reason for it too... I had a funda, “Its better to come late then never”…

That all was history, when I was in college, but professional life demands more sweat.. Following week I had been late due to some unavoidable reasons like.. I got accident and our bike was puncher.. Hey don’t run ur mind that these are fictitious or self created reasons but were actual one… but today, my bike partner and me were little lazy to wake up for office.. Slower we moved, faster clock runs.. and I was merely half an hour late…

By time, I just settled on my seat, He (Big B) called me to his cabin (I had felt this might happen some day, but not today).. Thinking of a new idea I reached there, but cant find something quite reasonable.. So I decided to say the truth.. When ask, I said “I woke up late, that’s why I was late to office” He argued “Is 09:30 too early to come? What more u need?” I hope someone can explain him flexible timings system, that might help me… and when asked ‘did u slept late??’ “Yes, as late as 5 in morning, as were celebrating friend’s b’day” Now I wonder what he might have thought?? But my confidence n extremist of reason made him speech less…

Final he gave up on me by requesting to “try come on time, for next week (like a short term goal setting plan)” I know he was aware that ‘I wont come on time’ again as he remind me “Christmas is coming, and there will be parties, but try ur best, its not difficult” How can I explain him that, its not easy to get out of bed… Now it’s all up to God, Almighty, to help me reach on time, as my past record is even worst to achieve “coming on time promises”

Thank God!!! My boss is cool…

ARE U PAKISTANI???

When u r afraid, when u think its all over, when u think u cant do anything, Also when every thing seems to be still, when no word can explain it, when u r angry but can’t show, when everyone become big n u small, when u have nothing to say, and when u wanna cry but can’t… that’s when u think what’s will happen now?? These feeling make u sick, but what can one does?? U knew this time/moment will be over soon/ someday but what should I do now???

These moments are what I wanna forger. Is there any thing that can help me forget?? I know, the thing I wanna remember most, is most earlier forgotten… and those whom I want to forget will come back again n again, knocking my head, reminding me ‘we r here, u cant hide’… And if I can forget them, “Ohh my God, I would love that.” When I asked my friend how, I can forget, he said ‘Time is best healer n it will make u forget’, but I think he is wrong…

Few days back, when I was standing at ATM with my friend, I asked guard sitting there “what this Gun, called?” He replied “12 bore”, and my friend enquired ‘aren’t they have two holes’ (seeing guard was carrying, gun with one point), he said ‘it’s of two type’. And a Man standing next to us in queue asked my friend, “R U PAKISTANI??” we were stunned and we looked his face speechless… what the hell he is asking?? What is wrong? Is speaking about guns, a crime?? Or just Pakistani’s talk about Guns and Rifles? Or anyone talking about Guns will be Pakistani or Afghani?? We were shocked to see mental level to such ignorant (but seemed to be educated) people.. I felt like yelling, “Give me a Break…”

Thinking now, what those innocent inhabitants of such countries would be feeling when, such kind of allegations are raised over their communities, culture or countries… as far as I know, no religion till date teaches or preaches terrorism. Someone rightly said, ‘Terrorism doesn’t have any religion or god’… and those uneducated can b taught any thing, ‘right can become left’, ‘black can be taught white’, ‘good can change to bad’.. But seeing those educated men like I meet that day, I felt ashamed… and thought how biased we are… We have multiple standards…

Saying he is wrong wont b right.. We think that way only... We r born biased… Our mother cared more of us then other, we want our brother/ sister win, even though someone else might be better, we favors our friend even though he/she is wrong (aakhir dosti hai bahi), Why should Australia/ Bangladesh win match against India? Aren’t we biased??? Every thing we look for, is of our own good, why should I care about others?? I think I m going way off what I started with, but such events made my mind boil every time… and a question come popping up in this small brain of mine, what will happen now???

WEDDING CRASHERS

10^th Nov. was a lovely day for me, as come 11^th; I will b feeling on top of world (u know, everyone does, on his b’day)… we were planning where to parties, my bumps etc. etc… but there was nothing special about night before it, as all 5 of my flat mates were not there and we were to celebrate on 11^th night only… On the way back home from office, we stop for some shopping.. When v reached back to our car, it didn’t started.. After some 15mins of quarrel and 100 meter of pushing it started..

It was around 8’o clock.. And it was well above time our maid used to leave if any of us didn’t reach back home.. When we were turning for home we saw a marriage palace, all lightened up, and it remind Rajiv of his friend’s invitation to a marriage, some where in or around NOIDA.. Soon he called him and come to know that, that marriage was in PANIPAT.. When we reached home, we found She (our maid), was gone.. We planed to go for that palace we saw on the way.. Yes, v did but said one of our friend, that its Rajiv’s friends invitation (knowing that he wont go, if wasn’t invited, too many ethics) and it will be fun too.. ALL 4 were ready to rock...

Soon v landed to that MAHARAJA Place.. and without any fear v entered.. There was some unfriendly feeling coming while doing so.. And come the nightmare… there were too many people and most of them were dancing like mad.. Sooner v find out that “There was no marriage” and some PUJA is going on.. We decide to escape out as soon as.. We were disappointed, and we felt like a joke..

So regretting v derived toward main market, searching for restaurant.. But all wanna go to marriage, anywhere even if not in noida. So like a lost loin, looking for his food, we moved.. Suddenly v saw some crackers lightning.. It seemed to b of a marriage celebration.. v asked a PAN walla.. He told ‘there’s a club that side’.. “That’s where it might be”. Sound of crackers increased.. We were almost there..

We entered with Bharat. We had planned to keep an eye on each other and didn’t act worried as gathering was too less. And as u might remember we were invited by ‘ANKUR’, Rajiv’s friend, if someone asked… We eat different delicious dishes, from fruit chat to hot chart, from Pani-puri to Pau Bajji, there were many things and we were enjoying it… Soon I saw a guy and he seems familiar too, I thought he was my senior. We try keep away from him. Then come Amul saying he has seen a senior too, we thought if they meet we will say as decided earlier. And there is no need to worry.

Dinner was served. And we want to eat and leave. Then I walk into one more senior, this time a well know to me. ‘Hi Saurabh, how r u? What u doing in this marriage? Which side u r from?’ For me ‘world seem to be too small’ and at such moments u don’t remember any excuse… but some how I handle him, he told how came he was here and why I had seen other sr. too. Then I turned away and move toward my friend to find, I m being stop by my classmate, by that time I know why she was there, they all worked in FREESCALE and there group head’s sister was being married.

We talked, she asked same questions and I gave that same reason we agreed on earlier. I felt she come to know I was lying, what ever I have to give some excuse. When we were talking, I just wanna skip from there but cant.. She keeps on asking too much and I had reply. I felt like its not good to be known by too many persons.. We had our dinner by then and just wanna leave before some scene gets created.

Actually I can say that even though, we were not even last person invited, we know many present there and they know us too… and now I feel knowing too many people is also dangerous… what ever had happened that day it was fun and seriously I loved it …

Complicated Me...

This world is very busy, it doesn’t have time for others, but do we have time for ourselves?? Actually, when I thought of same, I felt there r many things on my mind, I can’t even concentrate on a single of it. It has turned into some kind of ‘fish market’, as my English teacher used to say.. Neither I can find, what I am doing, nor I know what I wanna do.. If I try find out what’s problem or where I m messed up, I find myself more tied up into this spider’s web, and there seems no way out…
From last few days this problem continued to bundle up things over me.. As those close to me know I wanna do every thing I come across.. Most of them craziest.. I wanna go left but also right at same time, wanna study n read novels, wanna watch movies but also play, wanna chat with friends, wanna learn dance, also how to play Guitar, all in mere 24hrs that I have.. I cant explain, what in fact I want, but all these things are up here.. in my mind.. I don’t know it’s empty or filled up with crap?? But it don’t allow me to settle down.. Always calling out ‘do this, do that’.. Can’t it rest??
I cant think of a single day, when I can say I had done all I wanted to do.. But thinking about it, I also feel, what will be fun, if I have done everything or rather, if I didn’t try everything, I might have missed out some excitement.. Some time I feel like measuring what value me most.. But I end up doing what’s everyone is doing.. I thought that I m following other’s, but that’s what make me go diverse, isn’t it??
I don’t wanna flow with river, but I know I wont survive against it, or its because I m afraid of it?? Had I given up before I had started?? Was there more I can do, before expecting in one go??? I want to think I didn’t just follow the motion, but I can’t even lie to myself. I know I had taken decisions, which I know wont harm me. But will they help me?? I told u earlier na, I m totally messed up..
Today I thought a lot, what I m?? What I m making out of my life?? Did I have taken my decisions right?? Had I thought as much as I require before deciding where to move on?? After a wasting a lot of time, I end up thinking, its all had been in the past.. Leave it.. There’s more to come, I need to catch up to improve my future.. But God wanna me to know something.. That day I meet two of my friends, and some how v end up discussing same (why v r here??) and in finally nutshell we thought ‘its for learning more’…
Finally, I considered what kind of person I m.. I end up evaluation “I might not be GOOD, but I m not BAD too”.. I will stand for my friends when ever they need me.. I m happy that, I have too many friends, most whom I can rely on…In past few weeks I have written too much but didn’t post a single one.. may b In coming day I will post few of them… but I wanna post this one as someone might help me come out of my mind trap…

BANDIT THAT TOOK MY HEART...

Hey if u have time to waste then only read this one.. I suggest better leave it untouched.. As I even don’t know what I will write or what’s on my mind.. but one thing is clear, its for her.. She had been all over my mind.. n I cant hold any longer.. So I wanna reduce my kilo’s while writing it..

I cant forgot last few breakfast and lunch.. I don’t remember the day, I first saw u.. I even don’t know when I fell of ur smile too.. But sooner or later I come to know, I cant miss those lips brighten.. I wait for u to come.. I stayed till you go (this is what happen when she comes for lunch or breakfast).. I might not b able to speak to u.. But I wish we will chat someday..

Why can’t I talk to her??? There’s no problem, still I m afraid for something.. but is there any reason why she will talk to me (If one think I have a reason as I like her)??? I know, girls make u mad, they cause friends fight, but whatever it may b they (girls) are one we (boys) talk about most..

I forget my work (that’s not a problem) and even sometime leave my friends, when I heard ‘she is in café, come fast’.. Most of us including me will say ‘its love’.. I don’t know, I m getting mad?? I even don’t know her, I even don’t know is she one of those good Girls (which are extremely less).. but I feel she cant be one of those from where we (guys) try run away.. but I m not sure.. Who I m to evaluate her.. Do I love her?? or I m just affectionate by her beauty or that seraphic smile?? Then why I m thinking of her most of time..

I try forget her, (its easy to say but not that easy to follow) thinking, “if u love some one let it go, if it comes back to u, it’s urs, if not it never was”.. but this one has a lot of misconception.. First, she doesn’t know me, how can she love me.. Second, She is not with u how can u let it go.. Chalo, I will love to remain unknown or uneducated in this matter.. but when ever I saw her, every pledge go lost some where in alien world.. and I wanna live every second that I have.. I m trying my level best, but even in the hope u won’t let me forget ur self.. I hope that some day I will tell her what’s in my heart..

Now its have been high time.. I feel there had been too many ‘if and buts’, more of buts’.. Its true, When ever I think about her something happens.. Still her face completely covered with that luck cloth come to my mind.. I don’t know she really was a bandit or I was d culprit, to get arrested by those twinkling eyes…

UNLIMITED...

Yesterday was Gaurav’s birthday, I missed kicking his ass.. As I have to go for FAT (factory assistance test).. in simple word it was a visit to some other company.. What happen there, I can’t explain.. but d outcome was that I missed out a surprise party which we hosted for him..
Office was as good as it can always be.. Limited work (nearly no work), net to chat n a lovely smile to watch (will explain some time else).. Also I was hoping for a splendid party to follow.. We planned to visit GIP (Great India Place, a 1km long mall in Noida) feeling it will be d best place.. From office we were separated into two batches.. few of us on Auto n others via bike..
As d saying goes.. ‘Convenient it get, relaxed/soothe we become’.. if its not there add it to d list.. It took 2 hr or so for our bikers (most convenient way) to fill d gap.. by then we starving n those luring banner/photos were making it harder to control..
Looking these hungry face come a guy n start explaining a offer named ‘Unlimited’ to us.. As soon as he went we all joked there must b some hidden conditions.. we called him once more, re asked, he said “u all seemed to b educated.. its simple u can eat anything from that shop to that.. Unlimited time..”.. Comment seemed to challenge us.. but still that hidden cost factor seems a big block..
Then v took final decision that lets go for it.. Individual’s cost was just Rs 170 & we were determined to make it at least 250 each.. Sooner we settled, orders started popping out from every corner of table.. waiter seemed puzzle.. he brought two more (waiters) so that it would b easy.. finally they placed so called starter’s (they were even larger then Main course) on our table..
Now what!! Ten of us jumped onto food, like a ‘Cat on Rat’.. “pass that one, I wanna taste it”.. “this one is good, bhaiya ‘ye walli, Do aur le aana’..”.. every one making other aware don’t ask for any heavy dish.. “I m paying, u all order what ever u like n as much as u can..” call out Gaurav.. and laughed out.. we order even those we cant name.. every order seem to floated onto our table.. Cold drinks were flooding.. there was no stopping us.. many time it seems that we are gourmand.. but truth is we were…
Sumptuous were dishes.. We were eating, laughing n more eating.. Our tanks were loading.. but every one determined to last till end.. Sorry, I forgot to tell u.. this restaurant closes around 11.. but by 10.30 more than 30-35 different cuisine had been served to us.. Everyone was hunting in ‘carte du jour’ for any thing v missed.. but few cant find much..
I thought ‘Harold and Kumar’ might not be able to match us..
After final touches with French fries, we celebrate d Ceremony with Cake cutting.. we enjoyed a lot.. fun was at the peak.. we could not have thought of a better evening than this one.. each of us cost five times more then v actually paid..
I cant forget d look of manager’s face..
Thanks Gaurav for such a lovely party.. hope this scheme doesn’t end, even after such a heavy loss (thanks to us..)..
All I can say now it was “UNLIMITED”…